 Nang dahil kay Ed Sheeran.Sunday, September 13, 2015 | 0Superstar (s)!
I never thought that I will be writing about my feelings for you. Akala ko kasi kayang kong pigilan. Akala ko hanggang simpleng attraction lang. Akala ko dahil sobrang gwapo mo lang kaya ganun. Akala ko lang pala yun.
Akala ko kaya kong hindi mag-invest ng feelings dahil sa sitwasyon nating dalawa. Imposible naman kasi di ba? Pero nagkamali ako. As far as I remember, nagsimula yung "special something" ko para sayo since that night na unang beses ko narinig yung song ni Ed Sheeran na Thinking Out Loud. January 26, 2015 yun. I stayed in your apartment, same as usual. I can't remember the exact time. Then, you were driving me home tapos binuksan mo yung stereo sa car mo. Hindi ko na din alam kung anong radio station yun basta tandang-tanda ko lang sinabayan mo yung kanta. Dun sa part na... "Maybe we found love right where we are." Di naman kagandahan yung voice mo pero nasa tono ka naman. That time parang bigla akong kinilig kasi parang pakiramdam ko ako yung kinakantahan mo, na para bang you meant every word on the lyrics. Damang-dama ko yung mga butterflies in my stomach. Tahimik lang ako noon pero deep inside ang saya ko.
Hindi ko pa alam noon yung song na yun kaya naman pagkadating ko ng bahay ng-search agad ako sa google. And yun nga, Thinking Out Loud ang title nya at si Ed Sheeran ang kumanta. Dinownload ko kaagad yung song at paulit-ulit kong pinatugtog hanggang sa nakatulugan ko na.
After that night palagi ko na napapakinggan yung song na yun. Naging number one song pa nga sa mga radio stations for a few months. Ilang beses din kita ulet na narinig kantahin yung song na yun. May moment pa nga noong nagpunta ka sa office, magkalapit tayo tapos bilang yun ang tugtog sa MOR. Background music lang? I was trembling during that time. May kaba, may kilig, ganun yung pakiramdam. Kapag naririnig ko na yung song ikaw agad ang nasa isip ko. Kaya yun din yung ini-assign kong ringtone para sa contact number mo sa cellphone ko. Dahil dun mas na-appreciate pa kita. Hindi lang yung irresistible charm mo, pati na din yung mga nice qualities mo. The way you make me feel happy and kilig. Kahit hindi kita nakikita, your face is all over my head. Na-iimagine ko yung maganda mong smile. Kahit wala ka sa tabi ko, I can still smell you, I can still feel your touch and your kisses. It's driving me crazy.
I know that this is wrong but how can it possibly feel right at the same time? I don't know yet if this is love. I'm still confuse. I'm still trying to figure things out. At the same time, I'm still denying my feelings. Because I know where I stand in your life. I'm just your part time lover. No real commitment or whatsoever.
Gusto kong pigilan pero ang hirap. Sobrang naging attached na kasi ako sayo. Naisip ko nga, sana hindi mo na lang binuksan yung radio that time. Sana hindi mo na lang sinabayan si Ed Sheeran, para sana hindi ko dinamdam yung lyrics ng kanta at hindi ko binigyan ng pansin yung feelings ko para sayo. Eh di sana hindi ako nagkakaganito. Sana I'm not thinking out loud right now. Hay! Ed Sheeran kasi!
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