 Dilemma of a single lady.Friday, March 7, 2014 | 0Superstar (s)!
Upon reading articles on the internet, I came to a topic about single women and one big question strikes me the most: What's your biggest fear as a single person?
Woah! That was tough! While reading almost the whole entry, I realized that we have the same sentiments and fears. Maybe most single ladies out there feels the same. At this very moment, I can say that I'm quiet worried about how my life would be few years from now. A lot of people always ask me why I am still single. Even my family expects me to have a boyfriend and get married anytime soon. Why not? I know I'm not getting any younger.
Most of my batchmates are married now. I also wish the same. But how could that be possible? I'm not into a serious relationship right now. And yes, I value and cherish my singleness. Actually, I can say that I have an awesome life. However, I'm still thinking... what about my future? The real deal is I’m not going to be in my 20’s forever. For sure, my single friends will eventually get married and move on with their lives. How about me? I don’t want to wake up one day in the midst full of regrets and what if's.
The truth is, I want to marry the man of my dreams, my prince charming. Have someone to share my life with. Grow old with the one I love. Build my own family. To have a baby boy, then a baby girl and experience the great beautiful joy of being a mom. Teach them good values, nurture their talents and guide them to reach their goals.
I want that, every bit of it. Yeah, I sincerely love and appreciate the life I have but I really, really wish to have a husband and kids and a family of my own someday including all the trials and obstacles that comes along with it.
I am hoping that I will soon have all of that. But there are days, as each passing months turns into the next and another year comes around I feel so hopeless. Those days, I feel horrible, alone and uncertain about my future. The thought of being left alone scares me the most. I don't want that king of misery.
But as always, with moments like this in my life, I lift everything with God. I believe that he has a bigger and better plan for me. Maybe there's a chance that I will not get married or have my happily ever after but definitely I will find a way to be a mom, whatever it takes. (Fingers crossed...lol!) I just need to trust God's sovereignty. I have to conquer my fears. God’s plan is the best, even though it might deviate from my own plans and my own dreams. No need to worry because things could turned out better than I could have ever imagined.
All I have to do is cherish the present, grow and be a better person each day. Vanish all my fears and hesitations and prepare for my bright and beautiful future. :)
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